Best gift of 08

Just a post dedicate to the King of Kings...
my biggest gift of 2008=


I FOUND BACK JESUS IN MY LIFE!!:)

Jesus paid it all,all to Him iowe..

p/s:A new year that icant celebrate with family members!!

When??

When can I free myself from the EQUATIONS??@_@

It's very horrible to not just understand but to by-hard those equations....>.<

ineed a lot of coffee and PRAYERS....

I have studied more than 50 different math equations for the past few days!!>.<

p/s:Happy new year in advance!!

last Saturday of 08....

it's the final Saturday for 2008....
iwas s expected to study for whole morning....
(it din end up well!!>.<)
went for a discussion after lunch...=)
(nice one!!)
was thinking of my past 2008....
too much up n down....
too much dramatic scenarios happened right in front of me....
again,icant recall...
idun wish recalling it too....
forgetting what is behind & straining towards what is ahead...=)
there were definitely good things that were experienced by me...=P
ihad highlighted too many times in my previous posts so iwont repeat it this time...=D
in short,awesome 2008...=P

what a shocking news--->Planetshakers' hidden story!

today had almost 0 input for study!!@_@

p/s:im 14weeks away from graduating!!

Sorry...

idin really feel good these days....
it's my problem iguess....
still,ido quite a num of "wrong" things ishall say...
im learning everyday...
trust me.....
im reli wan to learn more....
in the walk with God....
im sorry,if imake anyone of u feel bad all this while....
iapologise...
im not posting this to any particular of u...
juz realised....
ihav rooms of improvement....
quite a big one!!
iwill keep on improving....;)
keep cheering for me and do pray for me....=)


p/s:14days away to 1st paper!!

H.O.P.E

it's Christmas...

iwill make it a short one...

juz back from church....=)

had a wonderful Xmas serivce juz now....

hope is the theme for this Christmas....

n suddenly,ithought of this:

HOPE is:

He(Jesus of coz)

Offers

Pathway to

Eternity

very often,v fall down...in the walk vf JC....

v alwaz feel disappointment....even between husband and wife,bf n gf, or among church friends....

the "incompleteness" of human being juz shows that v r not perfectly made....

but,there is only 1 that never fails....

He is my boss-JC....=)

im a blessed guy....

do u manage to find the hope of ur life??

p/s:thnx for all the caring messages,everyone...=)

Xmas eve...

it's Christmas eve today....

iwas studying whole nite long last nite....

im ready for later's caroling session as im leaving to stay overnight at friend's place....

life remains tense since exam is getting closer and closer...

had a nice start of the morning when i received a mail from uncle Tome...

glad to know they r back home safe...=)

gonna miss them a lot...@_@

ya,received my 2nd Christmas gift of 2008 yesterday too...

by uncle Rodney-a nice CD...=P

introduce my favourite hymn of Christmas-->O Come All Ye Faithful

about 2008years ago,HiStory of human mankind for the 1st time had "HOPE" coz A Saviour was born...=)

p/s:Merry Christmas in advance....=P

WhY wE nEeD JeSuS??

this question flipped through my mind as itravelled back to my hometown last thursday....

here are some people that imanaged to observe last week:

• she is maybe one of the most popular girls in my university....im not close with her at all..accidently read her blog and realised the EMPTINESS of her inner-heart...


• he is one of the most hardworking guys in my class....he studies hard,has "goal of life",very realistic...but he juz seems to b "motiveless" in lot of aspect of life...


• she is one of the top students in my class...she is smart,she is good....but she juz keeps complaining about her life...the "incompleteness" of both her study life as well as relationship life..


• he is a very lucky guy...he has a nice family,smart in his study...has a nice gf....but smehow,the emotional behaviour is his main weakness probably...he seems to struggle in lot of part of his life...did i mention that he is my best friend in my university?


• she is a very simple girl...very hardworking girl...very sweet,good to be with...as in friend...she juz on9 when im posting this blog...again,in part of her life,she juz seems to struggle..."y dun face the real truth when u noe things are quite impossible to deal with?"


• she is my hozmate...she is kinda blur in her face all the while...being lame is her basic description...she is nice,but juz seems to fail to deal with one side of her hidden,untold life...."y nvr b brave to face the real truth?"


• he is another smart guy,very smart though....personally,ithink he needs to build up his personality and his bravery...he seems to b lost a bit in his life ithink....


• she was once my best friend....she alwaz feel stress....mayb she still give herself too high expectation,she seems to hav struggled in lot of part of her life....how does "what iwan for my life?" sounds like when u get to see this in her msn personnel message?

the above people are those imanaged to observe in their life....for what they lack of,is a purpose driven in their life....they are either being blinded,or being refused to recognise the existance of JC...

im glad that im a bit different from them...mayb im still struggling in my life though...but ihave HOPE....eventhough inoe that im incomplete....inoe ihave a lot of weaknesses too....but it's ok,for His power is perfectly made in my weakness...

ilove Jesus....=)

nice song to intro--->Mystery

We love,because He loves us first!!

p/s:Christmas is 3days away...=)

when??

when was the last time idrop my tears for smeone??

when was the last time ilaugh for few minutes long?

when was the last time icant sleep coz of smething??

when was the last time icnat sleep coz imiss smeone??

when was the last time itry so hard to stay in msn juz to wait for smeone??

when was the last time ido crazy things for smeone??

when was the last time iwant to noe more bout smeone??

when??

icouldnt remember all that....

n idun wan to admit it....

ijuz cant remember....

all ican recall will b...

"that night,Jesus came down from heaven and entered my life..."

p/s:going back hometown today!!=D

week 12th!!

im reli very busy!!!!
but iwonder how n y im still here to update my blog....
ihav 2 projects due which one falls on tomorrow and one is on friday....
ijuz completed the work for part of mine....
(iwork for 1.5++persons' workload thanks to my "nice" final year project mate....@_@)
one more project that left to be polished....
definitely...frustration period,emotional time were in it (for the passed 12 weeks)...
and,i know i cant complete all these work with just myself...
this verse is my source of strength for quite a while:
"With this man is impossible, but with God all things are possible." 'Matthew 19:26'

faith, hope and love....

p/s: going home on Thursday...=)

Purpose driven life...

it's kinda unusual for me to blog(2 days in a row) at this time of my life when everyone(particularly my uni frends) is busy over their coursework,Final year project,doing some shopping for Christmas or some other things....

icant imagine it's December n Christmas is juz 2weeks away....
wow~~~
so fast,another 365days pass by...
ican still recalling last year's Christmas when ijoined my hometown's church for the whole Christmas celebration....=)
what will it b like for this year??
cant wait for it to come actually...=P

next week will b the final week of this semester....
ihave 2big projects due...@_@
will lead in songs worshipping for final Bible study group meet up next wednesday...=)
jia you cactus...

good song to introduce---->Never let go

The book that teman me for 40spiritual days...it has not been easy for the journey...but im glad imade it!!=)

p/s:bought a new 4GB pendrive for rm27.90 last nite!!

thank you...

had a nice,sweet definitely awesome Bible study group meeting last nite...

it was so special coz it was the final time for both uncle Tome n aunty Frances to b there...

Of course,v will miss them as they r leaving back to State next Sunday....

Personally,ireally cant bear to let them leave....@_@

the "friendship" that build up for the passed 1year...

igrew up and still growing up from smeone that has "little faith" to the KaiSeng today...

(still having small heart...but definitely having a much bigger faith than 1year ago!!:P)

Uncle n Aunty surely having the biggest credit in helping me all the way long.....

I reli thank JC for sending this couple in part of the road of my life....

Was reading the Scripture last nite...

found 2verses that made me thought of uncle and aunty(the great workers of JC)....

here it goes:

Then He said to His disciple, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest,therefore,to send out workers in His harvest field." 'Matthew 9:36-37'

the verses juz summarise the life of both uncle and aunty for the passed 30+years...

a wonderful song to intro yet again----->Thank you

the picture that ilike a lot...=)

p/s:look forward to summer meet up....=)

probably...

it's another new week....
week 11th in this speedy semester....
it will b an emotional week for sure....
smeone that had,still hav n will b having great great impact towards my Christian life is leaving..
sorry,"they" r leaving in 2weeks time.....
it will b one last chance where iwill b learning Bible knowledge from my good Bible teachers,uncle Tome n aunty Frances....
but,life has to move on.....
iwill hav further update on this session in my next post....

a very interesting question was asked by 4 different persons since last week....
same question was asked...
"Kai Seng, y u dun hav a GF?"
"Anyone comes across ur eyes recently?"

idun mean to highlight this ques in fact...
(does this mean everyone think that im desperate?hahaha~~)
or it's juz co-incident??
ihav no idea....=P
probably,this is still the most fragile part of my inner-self....
idun dare to make any further move even ihav sme kind of good feeling towards smeone...
im juz a coward....@_@
besides,ihav no time??
Bible study group issue,FYP,studies are filling up my time...
icant imagine how life would b if there is a word of "GF" added in between those tasks!!
n inoe i can fully rely on my boss-JC...
for He will provide me the needs when time is there....
s my old concept...
im not aiming for more,but juz one 100% nice,sweet gal will do..=)

finally, calculation of my final year project is done...
juz a little bit more of polishing part is needed....
it's time to prepare myself for exam...
go Cactus...=)

nice song to intro--->Voice of truth

love this verse today:
"Do not withhold Your mercy from me,O LORD;
may Your love and Your truth always protect me." 'Psalm 40:11'

focus on more vital things in life...

p/s:idin see sun shine for 4 days!!

friendship...

it's another friday....
life remains super duper and watever busy.....(thnx to FYP!!>.<)
smehow,iwitnessed a lot of "personal-emotional" issues recently....
friendship,relationship....
it juz makes me feel so sad,for icant help much in those situations....@_@
it also makes me think of iwas in fact once one of those that struggled these earthly problems....
but,im glad...coz imet the savior of my life...=P
The Scripture requests us to love our friends(aka-brothers!)...(1 John 4:20-21)
The Bible asks us to forgive our brothers too.....(Matthew 18:21-22)
ihope things will run well soon...=)

accidently found this pic in google...love the wording part of the pic~~;)

p/s:Happy birthday to someone that has quite a deep impact to my Christian life!!=)

wait for me~~

so fast,another week passed....

went home last week n for sure ihad nice time there....

nice food,slower-tempo living style,new car(hoho~~),nice gathering vf sis n parents....=P

so many things seemed to happen this week....

was moodless for sports on monday..(imagine 0goals,0assists in 2hours of futsal!!@_@)

completed my long-delayed book(where is the discipline of 1book per month!!;P)

60%completed for all projects load for this sem....

it's DEcember again....

the last month of 2008....

it's an awesome year of coz....=P

good song to intro again-->消失

quote of the book:

"In the world around us. Merely be attentive to what happens in your life, and you will discover where,every moment of the day,He hides His words and His will.Seek to do as He asks:this alone is the reason you are in the world!"

p/s:officially 14weeks from graduating!!>.<

there muz b~~~

there muz b reason for lot of thingss....
there muz b a reason for me to blog here,now...(dun feel like working on my Coursework for sure!!)
there muz b a reason that im still breathing...(thnx JC for every breathe that i inhale!!)
there muz b a reason that im going home tomolo!!(miss my family n my hometown of coz!!)
there muz b a reason for me to keep my days in its best condition..(spread His name~~)
there muz b a reason y iwanna offer help...(Love in many ways...)
there muz b a reason....

intro another nice song--->愛是不保留

p/s:im still a coward in certain things!!@_@

12...

iwonder when was the last time that iblog for 2 days in a row....

iwas a bit emotional last nite....

im sorry if imade anyone worrying for me....

thnx Adam n Sam for ur care n words...=)

im fine today....

was taking part in ACE charity run...

how bout woke up at 645am(it was raining at 630am!!) n got myself ready by 720am n the race started at 810am??

it was a 4.3KM length race where about 100+ students took part in that race....

n guess wat,i finished the race vf num 12th out of mayb 80++males???(think my time is <25minutes!!)

felt glad towards my own achievement(in fact iwas half-dead after the race!!=P) coz invr trained myself n especially after i sprained my left ankle yesterday....

it juz made me think of in fact in our spiritual walk vf JC....

we feel weary and v stumble very often....n everytime when v feel like giving up....

JC will alwaz b there for us....=)

He will nvr leave us or forsake us...(Hebrew 13:5-6)

p/s:this is my registration num....107!!=)

tonite...

tonite...
iwas n am still feeling weird....
heart is tired....icant feel my JC....
things juz seem to b so negative....
everything....
iwonder y.....
is that because of another test from boss??
or???
iduno....
im feeling tired...
my body is in a very weird condition...
weather is so humid n warm....
it's melting me both physically and mentally.....
tonite.....im feeling weird!!!
sprained my left ankle....
hurt my left elbow....
thnx to the over-exercise days.....

p/s:it's another weekend!!@_@

more than enough!!

life remains busy s FYP still torturing me days n nites....
for so many occasions,idun even have chance to sit down, and observe the beauty of nature that created by God....
furthermore,the more i do for my FYP,the more i realise that how limited a human can do n how fragile im.....
somehow,im still delighted(2co12:10)....
no matter in future how tough the road will be,iwill be fully rely on Him...
for His grace and love are more than enough for me...=)

nice song to intro--->Enough

He can perform wonders that cannot be fathomed,miracles that cannot be counted!!.."Job 9:10"

p/s: it's week 8th!!

MB(Mass Balance)

im dealing with this Final Year Project(FYP) for 7weeks d....

felt so much of self-satisfaction after spending1 full-day juz to complete my Mass Balance for 2major units in my FYP,Distillation Column units....

from the start to the end...ifixed it all....

I can do everything thru Him who gives me STRENGTH...."Phi 4:13"

this is the how a Distillation Column unit looks like...=)

p/s:it's another saturday!!!=P

nice song to intro!!

one life to love....

stumble??remember Him....

it's another weekend....week 6th according to the uni calender....
had smething special today....
up-side-down day....
was stumbled but im fine now....:)
how bout when uwere thinking to "da-bao" nice lunch to makan with ur hozmates after usent to other frends' hoz n YOU REALISED THAT YOU FORGOT TO BUY A SET FOR YOURSELF!!
n ur BIKE'S FRONT BRAKE SYSTEM SPOILT AT THE SAME TIME!!!
oh...did i say that ISPENT ALMOST 40MINUTES IN THE WORKSHOP JUZ TO FIX MY BIKE?
then the "TOO NICE N SUNNY" day melted u.....
but when ithought that iwas having such an unlucky day....
things juz seemed to strike me all at once....
ithink of Him....read this:1 Corinthians
He never let me go when iwas weak....nvr let me go when iwas at my peak...nvr let me go coz im imperfect....=)
im glad for this....
nice song to intro--> Captivated

p/s:gonna study a bit b4 ican go for the big clash between gunners and devils tonite!!=P

.......

I M VERY BUSY!!!!!!!!(English)

Estoy muy ocupado!!!!(Spanish)

أنا مشغول جدا!!!!(Arabic)

我很忙!!!!!!(Chinese simplified)

Je suis très occupé!!!!(French)

אני מאוד עסוק!!!!!!(Hebrew)

मैं बहुत व्यस्त हूँ!!!!(Hindi)

私は非常に忙しいです!!!(Japanese)

Estou muito ocupado!!!!(Portuguese)

When shall this kind of life will end???>.<

p/s:need a break!!!@_@

it's NOVEMBER~~~

so fast,phew~~~~

October comes to the end....

it's juz so fast...

icouldnt even hav time to reflect back on watz going on....@_@

lot of things happened in fact but im glad that isurvived from it after all....=P

but ihad a nice evening today.....

hahahahaha~~~~

managed to hav Baskin RoBbin ice cream today!!!!

like wat ihad in that moment..still miss uncle Tome when iwas there....

it's another new month...

a new start for myself....GO KAISENG!!!=)

p/s: played my 1st squash session in 8days!!!

iknow that~~

life still remains so so pack......
my working hour is not double but TRIPLE of wat ihad back to year 2!!!!
surprisingly,it juz nvr end...my work....icant figure out y oso smetimes....@_@
accidently read smething today and it has "upset" me for juz a while...
reli juz a while...mayb 2minutes??=)
iwill not tell u watz happening but as wat ican conclude will be....
"I NEVER FEEL REGRET OF TRYING TO HELP IN SOLVING THAT INCIDENT!!EVEN THOUGH WITH THAT,I LOST SOMETHING...."
im fine if ilose that....if this is the path that ishall go through.....
im fine...coz inoe one thing:
"The Lord has placed me here for His purpose."

p/s:Going to ChemEng night later!!=P

so another 365!!

wow~~~time reli flies....it's another Deepavali again....another 365days passed by.......

icould still recalling last year's Deepavali when my bro-in-law and my sis came to pick me up b4 we headed to Seremban to "celebrate" Deepavali....=)

somehow,this year's Deepavali is juz a very normal day for me...nothing much other than doing tutorials....read up session.....>.<

intro a nice song that ilove it kinda a lot recently:"He will carry you"

an old Hymn but i juz love it much....=P

thnx for everyone's prayers and care...my toes' injury is recovering...in a speedy pace!!=)

p/s:I will soar on wings like Eagles~~~

Iam glad...

im glad that im who im...

s time goes by,ibegin to witness more n more things around my life....

im so glad that my life is so much different from them....

hollowness in life n purposeless towards life are the main weaknesses that ican observe....

im glad im not having that kind of life anymore.....

it's nvr the same when JC is in ur life.....

reli love my life now!!!!

my inner-heart..will nvr b hollow again....for it's filled...the purpose driven of life....=)

p/s:happy deepavali in advanced!!:P

我遇见了一次自行车事故!/imet vf a bike accident!

imet vf an accident....it was so unexpected to have that!!!!not in the right time....

hahahahaha~~~~

well,it started vf a bike trip back to campus after my early lunch....tried to say hi to a frend and the next scene is....."oouuccccchhhhh~~~~"

imet vf an accident....tried to avoid a direct hit to a big stone...i "slided" thru it....

obviously,igot cut!!!!bike a bit rosak...

idin feel like crying(frends asked me y?)....in fact,ifelt very funny...cant stop laughing at my own act...hahahahahah~~~

my toes were bleeding kinda serious n when ireached home(mayb 20meters away?)....

the blood was like....free Ribena juice???flowing out non-stop....;P

hahahahahhaa~~~~n imagine igot to receive immediate self-treatment right in front of my hoz's main front door!!!

well,till the end...got to skip lectures today...>.<

this is my right foot now!!!juz sme cuts....no worry...im fine....=)

p/s:if uwant to,keep me in ur prayer or cheer up for me!!!!=P

Estoy enfermo!!/Im sick!!

fall sick!!!!

4 in 1....

fever,flu,cough,itchy-throat (not sore-throat!!)

it is juz come not at right time....ihave tonnes and tonnes of work to be completed and I need to plan for coming week event!!!!

did my best to cure myself....

1. Went to play squash...itot it will be much better after you sweat so much through games!!result?(Failed!!!>.<)




2. had mug number 3rd of warm honey now....had panadol solution!!!!now im feeling very tired n sleepy....;)

icant fall sick now la....do keep me in ur prayer or cheer up for me!!!!ineed that so much now.....

virus virus go away!!!!healthy KaiSeng is on the way back to his top form!!;P

rater ma vie de l'été/miss my summer's life

Je veux juste voir comment il se sent comme à écrire mon blog dans certaines langues que je ne comprends pas. =)
la vie a été occupé Kinde que des projets et des travaux sont s'accumulent. T.T ministère de travail est toujours sur son chemin, mais il semble que les progrès ne sont pas vraiment bonnes. se tenir à prier pour que le week-end et un autre est en avance sur moi. plus de sortie à novembre?>.<
p/s:panneau solaire a subi de laboratoire sans la lumière du soleil aujourd'hui!=.=''



i just want to see how it feels like to write my blog in some languages that i do not understand. =)life has been kinde busy as projects and works are piling up.T.T ministry work is still on its way but it seems like the progress is not really good. got to keep praying for that and another weekend is ahead of me. no more outing till november?>.<
p/s:underwent solar panel lab without sunlight today!=.=''

this is wat i get!!!

life cant be packed anymore when you get all "giant" stuffs at the same time...
it goes worse when you hav Solar panel as CEL project and Acetic Acid as your final year project....
It's juz totally out of the scope that ican handle....
totally blank over it....
but now inoe im going to love them much....=.=''
life seems to b packed now but ilove it....
you shall noe y.....;P
btw,CEL=Chemical Engineering Laboratory....it means you are given a topic and you got to figure out it yourself on how you wanna run your lab...=.="
Do keep me in your prayer....;)


p/s:had nice Dodgeball games juz!!=)

so that's it!!

contributed my 1st time today....
language still is a problem....
still nervous....
still spoke too fast....
still made mistakes.....
still blur.....
still......

but iwas happy to do that....
nice work,kaiseng....;)

p/s:going home tomolo!!!;P

equation!!

Equation of year 3:

Work+work+read+sports=life for KaiSeng for the past 2 weeks...

Iam happy bout that anyway....

it will nvr be the same....;P

fall sick d la...unpredictable weather is the mastermind!!>.<

p/s:fall in love with "switchfoot" yesterday....nice band vf cool vocal...;)

family...

family has been very vital to me...8 of them are my studying motive...in my life so far,no matter watever problems,waves,up and down that ifaced...they are alwaz there...im reli thnkful to hav them vf me all this while.....

but,ido think sometimes overcare smeone will lead to misery....words,and language will lead to misunderstanding....but im still glad...coz,they responded in that way means they care bout me...it juz made me feel cool....ijuz hope....it juz nvr affect our relationship...=)

taken in April 07.....best ever pic...XD

p/s:time to go back to School after 1week break!!

weekend...

managed to reach home at 3pm....in short,ihad a really nice,blessed weekend...
uncertainties and some darkness were troubling me b4 that...Imanaged to understand more bout God's words....n it's juz like wat louie giglio said in "Hope tour"....
Accepting Jesus doesnt mean that you are like in an express coach...for the rest of ur life...you will b in a good,n "suffer-less" life....Scripture doesnt say so....in fact, it does say that...when v hav Christ in us,no matter how v may suffer physically or mentally...no matter how things become at the end,all we hav is HOPE...n by FAITH....we will win and we can survive....


managed to witness Building dedication service of KLBCC...
glad to see how God really work in this nation....
and im very sure...more to come....
"Greater things are still to be done!!"
quote of the day:
So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God."1co 10:31"





p/s:iduno watz wrong in a part of frend cycle??

summary of 6years....

well,im a future engineer...ithink the best way for me to summarise my 6years of Christian life is by using a graph....my lecturer alwaz tells me,a graph can cover watever mistakes or points that u may miss out in ur speech...so here it goes:

still remember it's june 2002,i was in my late-May school holiday....v had a camp...the 1st camp in 5years time that was organised in my 2ndary school???vfout hesitation,iregistered....was really touched by the boys' brigade friends from Johore(ihad sme bad memories b4 that and imess up in my friend cycle)...icouldn't understand the joy that they had in them....the love that shared among them....iwanted that...

(even till today,i still keep in touch vf them...=)...)

still i remembered it very clearly...for the 1st time iwalked into the church in mersing,it was an evening...they invited me to a church drama right after the camp ended!!!accepted Christ that evening...the day that iwas re-born=4th of june 2002.......
form 5 time was great coz we had youth time in church but idun think vf a total of 4members in youth....ucould hav too much wonderful memories...that's the period imanaged to know more bout God....well,iknew ihadn't fully surrendered myself to Him...inamed myself as "Church visitor" instead of "Christian"....vf doubt,iwas not yet there...sin still surrounded me...well,itot icould bargain vf God...but U CANT!!!!!

NS time was fun after f5...iwas put in mersing's camp....managed to meet some friends that really had impact in my life even till today....church life became the sweet time for us to have more interaction and fellowship since everyone tot iwas the "Big brother(so called gangster)" in mersing...but im not...=)......but v really had fun.....it was the 2nd time that God really brought me back to His hand....my spiritual life was fully-filled during that period....

f6 time was the darkest time in my Christian life...itransfered to a new school...it's a very chinese town,which means....lot of temples,and not many ministries were running at that place...istarted quiting from church service....ialwaz gave myself a very lousy reason that ineeded to travel every week and idid...normally,iwould leave the place(muar) every friday after school either back to mersing or spore...n onli returned on late sunday evening...vf this "solid" reason...icould escape from church service....how stupid iwas...rite??but thnx God that He nvr abandoned me...but ileft Him behind!!!!being a Christian was kinda "burden"(icant think of other words to express this vf my limited vocab) for me during my f6 period....ifelt guilty...when itraveled,ifelt lonely...then iwould "blame" and "complain" to God....(how sinful iwas!!!!)....

n it happened to me even till when ientered UNIM....itold myself igot to change...it's a new start...iwanted back my nice Christian life that imissed out since my NS time....(idid go n look for few churches)....but again,sin enticed me and i consented!!after the real big blow in a relationship by the end of my year1....so amazingly,God was there for me again....(thnx God!!:P)

imagine ihad so many sleepless nights....iwas so down..ieven wanted to quit uni....for a girl??umuz b thinking im crazy...n yes,ithink iwas so so stupid n really crazy by having such mindset!!!!hahahahahaha~~~~

n for summer 07,iwas working in mersing...itold myself...igot to find back the foundation of joy-God....iwas consistently attending to the church service in my hometown..at there,ifound back my joy....darkness was gone.....words of God started to talk to me...iwas so happy and idin even wan the summer of 07 to end..(but the start of summer 07 was so scary!!>.<)

autumn of 07 was fantastic coz imet a new guy that really is a nice guy-alex....by God's plan,we moved into the same hoz,same room....ithnk God coz He put alex for me and alex reli showed me how a Christian should live like...my faith towards Him was getting deeper and deeper...but still satan is 24 and 7......sme non-christians friends,still tempted me...n iadmitted that for occasionally,idid commit sin...T.T

n 1st ever Bible study group was formed in the spring 08 semester....well,iadmitted idin really put in my faith and even my time for that during that period..(again,how could i??it's for God's work!!!!aiyoo....)istill looked forward to those temporal things in the earth like frendship,power,status n etc...

but God noes me, so He had this for me....summer 08 was awesome....it started vf a blow in friendship!!(but im glad coz for the 1st time,irealised things in the earth will decay,corrode but not God's love).....then,iwas given a job of Research Assistant in uni.....and it changed me....words of God stunned me day by day...love of God penetrated thru my heart seconds by seconds....for the 1st time,iunderstand wat Christianity is meant...how great is our God...n it makes me who im today....there are so many things and even experiences(passion,conneXion,Bible study group,sunway trips) that ihad gone thru this summer that icouldnt use words to express it...it's juz so amazing....

well,s for me...ihad gone thru so much hardship...so many things in my life...abandoned God,tried to bargain vf God...tried to deal vf everything vf "MY OWN UNDERSTANDING"....n im back onto my track....

for the rest of my life,iwill nvr leave my Savior anymore...that's y ialwaz tell others...iwas blind but am found....iloved the summer 08 coz iwas re-born yet again....ilove my life now...coz iwanna equip myself..wanna armor myself even more since ispent too much time in finding my path back to God's track....but im glad ido...coz im gonna shine His name...gonna b His salt,His light....for the rest of my life....iwill worship U forever,Lord...thnx for nvr leaving me behind when itot ican survive vfout U......You r good....

by,

Your sinful servant,

Kai Seng

tongue is a fire...

iwas reading the scripture this morning....smething totally stunned me n iwas again so amazed by how God talked to me via Scripture......

The tongue also is a fire, a world of evil among the parts of the body. It corrupts the whole person, sets the whole course of his life on fire, and is itself set on fire by hell."James 3:6"

in the sermon that iwas listening juz now...it said the similar things....dun not judge smeone or try to differentiate good from bad,just from unjust....do not set ur own standard by critising how things should b done or "advice" how things can be solved....else u r juz like those sinners in the world that refuse to accept Christ....coz u nvr listen n seek His will but u,yourself set all that....
and for all these,ur tongue does play a vital role for it....

wat v need to do is juz....confess our sin,surrender ourselves to God....seek His will in all v do....
ok,im onli "6years old" in my Christianity age...iadmit idin by hard Bible verses....iwasnt so fortunate to grow up in a Christian family....my eng level is nvr good...imay still make sme mistakes or may use wrong words or expressions.....imay still committing sin....if smeone duno me....n plz dun judge me...n definitely no one cant upset me coz i hav faith....The scripture alwaz says, having faith is the start of everything,trust is the currency of any relationship...
probably,the lesson that i can learn is to control my tongue if possible,to make every single decision of my life by seeking God's will.....

p/s:im sorry if i upset anyone no matter thru words or messages wat so ever way...im sorry...

passion of Christ

the movie iwatched last nite...2nd attempt after mayb 4,5 years....the impact was far greater than the 1st time...mayb idin understand wat Christianity is when i1st watching it.....

all i can said is juz:"Y?????"

iwept s the movie was playing...it made me recalled a lot of sin that ihad committed in my life no matter vf purpose or accidentally....

He paid for me...He died for me....He could choose not to in fact....but He did that....He suffered for me...for my sin....a sinless,holy son of Men paid it for me!!!!

the movie kept flashing in my mind even until now...the words, the scriptures,the love of Him to His ppl...the definition of "Kingdom".....the death of Him...and for sure, the resurrection at the end of the movie...i noe we win at the end.....

my heart is again inspired and being full-filled by how God had done for me.....iwanna equip myself...b His soldier,b His servant....shine His name for the rest of my life....b His light and salt in this mortal earth.....

"He became sin,who knew no sin~~~"-Chris tomlin

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

"Romans 6:23"

p/s:we are saved by God's mercy,not by our merit-by Christ's dying,not by our doing.

a week on,a week off...another week is ahead,a week had gone...

week 1 in final year gone.....happy and sme sadden stuff....experienced it again...but inoe this is life....test after test...this is wat God plans for me....He juz wan me to seek for Him more...in all i do....(Pro 3:5-6)
happy part??sure it will b the 1st Bible study group that v managed to start it last thursday....im reli glad n cant wait to c the good news of Him to b spread to not juz this campus but the whole nation....life in final year is fine too....got to make it a very memorable year and vf His blessing...sure ican make it...=)
Sad part??well,it's kinda ironically that ibecame smeone's best frend yet iwas listening the sad story of the frend....im ok vf this but ifeel a bit helpless.....inoe im nvr good in comforting ppl..wat i can do is juz listen to the words...share the pain,b vf the frend when the frend needs me.....
cheer up brother....things mayb not s bad s u think...ilove a quote that was written in the water bottle that ijuz lost it:"Everytime when you feel things gonna get worse,it onli go worst!!"...
so,y not juz pray bout that??seek His will in all you do....it will b solved...for v hav such a wonderful savior!!!!!will pray for u...daily...till the issue is over....;)

p/s:everything in the world will change,but love from God remains the same....

you think u r great??YOU r NOT!!!

iwas having a super-duper free day....started vf a weird morning when power supply was cut off(idin check the main power box since im not an E&E student!!=D).....missed out the 2nd shifting session of KLBCC but my prayer did go vf them...good to hear that it's almost done!!=)...

was "you tube-ing" the 1st debate between Sen.Obama and Sen.McCain....well,icant deny that Sen.Obama is a much better public speaker....he is so polite,humble, and definitely has his own charisma....again,smething came across my mind....

when ppl are fighting for things like power,wealth,status on this temporal Earth....how shall God sees towards all these???

"The heavens declare the glory of God; The skies proclaim the work of His hands."-psalms19:1

"By the word of the LORD were the heavens made,their starry host by the breath of His mouth."-psalms33:6

"From heaven the LORD looks down and sees all mankind;from His dwelling place He watches all who live on earth. He who forms the hearts of all,who considers everything they do."-psalms 33:13-15

what can match the words of God?universe was formed by the words of Lord...He can name every single star in the universe by its name coz He made them all and put them in the place He wants to...He was,is and will b watching every single sons, and daughters of Him in the earth...He knows wat we were doing,are doing and even things that we are going to do in future.....

so,if you think you are very great,sorry...you are nothing and don't let your arrogance,egoism make you feel lost....

God,everythingYou hold in Your hand and still You make time for me I can't understand

p/s:love the relationship vf God now..ihope it last forever and ever~~~=)

19..

finally,1st Bible study group of this academic year started last nite...guess wat,19turned up n v made it a success....so blessed that everything was running in a smooth way even though it was raining juz before the gathering started....

had sme wonderful fellowship time,makan session,Bible words' teaching definitely,and for sure songs worshipping session....hhhhuuuurrraaaaayyyyyy~~~~~~im reli glad to c how God had started to work in this area and "greater things are still to be done"!!!!!

got my final year's CEL topic-Solar panel...CEL=Chemical Engineering Laboratory....well,an unexpected title that ican think of but iwill try my best to work on it....

Holy is the Lord God almighty!!

p/s:hav another week of break for Hari raya....

2nd day...

so fast...2days gone in my final year....=).....back into school yesterday...though im still not reli get used vf the pace set by lecturers....tried so hard to understand everything....nothing much to talk bout study but the interesting part will be....

Bible study group is back~~~~~~hurrrraaaaaayyyyyyy......gonna hav the 1st gathering for this academic year in coming thursday....gonna hav a party....hahahahaha~~~~im so ready to witness how God is going to do vf this place....it's all bout Him....im juz so blessed n definitely enjoyed the preparation of all this...icant wait to c how my campus will b shaken by the love of God.....

one more good news,the ministry of getting an on-campus church service is on the right path i should say that....green light is not far away but iwill keep praying bout that....plz pray for me and my team so that all obstacles that v may face will b solved....for He is so good and He is so wonderful....=)


Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. "1 john 3:18"


whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything. "1 john 3:20"








p/s:enjoy every single grace and love of God....

another start...

it's another new start for me...after 4months n 5days of break....im ready to back to school tomolo!!!juz ended another nice Sunday service....another powerful testimonial.....persevere n endurance are the values that ineed to learn from the pastor...met the new 3guys that will b ready to go to war vf me in extending the kingdom of God in semenyih....cool.....=)



im again experiencing the love of God thru a lot of things in my life...smetimes,ppl around me juz cant feel wat im experiencing...it makes things become difficult....but idun mind,it's juz the love of Him n me...it's onli for me...iduno how others will look at me or rate me or even critisize me..iwill juz keep on...keep the flare of God in me....iwanna be equipped....iwanna b ready....

enjoy every single day under His love and grace regardless change in season.....
iwas blind but now isee....
thnx for the wonderful crucifixion,Lord.....





p/s:look forward to coming thursday's 1st Bible study gathering....

One last call....

had a real crazy day today.....woke up at 620am(supposed to b 6am...)rushed to Bukit Segar,cheras to play basketball vf WinGs bro n sis....another wonderful fellowship.....(im kinda a good player so called??;P)

left at 9am to KLBCC....promised TO2UGH bro n sis to help them to shift things to new church...praise Lord....it's so nice to c the new home of God....hope smeday ican visit back....=).....worked for bout 3hours(iworked very hard la!!!;j).....n ya,it's Jon's birthday today....had sme nice conversation vf him n the rest oso.....hahahahaha~~~~(but memang banyak habuk la....!!!)

managed to come back home by 1pm....then went to Kjg to fetch a hozmate sambil makan lunch(Happy-Happy visit!!) n guess wat....straight go to LCCT to fetch the other frend...(my summer's SAGA owner).....

juz reached home---time?it's 530pm n gosh....from 620am-530pm???how bout that???hahahahahaha~~~~~

gonna meet up vf a frend later for dinner s she was juz back from USA....my summer finally is over and ireli love the summer of 08....coz....this is the summer that had the most impact in my life....iwas lost but am found!!!=)

im glad ihav this 08summer coz im now hav Him in me n i will nvr leave Him behind n iwanna make Him known for the rest of my life....it will nvr be the same anymore....

finally,summer is over and autumn is approaching....
time to go back school n fight for my degree....
summer08=new birth of a guy named-KaiSeng.....

im back~~~~

phew.....so fast....Kuching trip was over....it was such an unexpected trip when imet with the people ihav nvr thought of i will meet with....gonna split it into 3parts i think....blog by days will b the best for me to review n re-chew this nice yet "memorable" trip......

this is the best pic i can use to conclude my 1st day(how bout 6am in LCCT??=.=')...it's the 2nd flight in 2008 n my 1st ever flight vfout my family....praise God that icould again witness how great is His work in borneo this island....1st day,idin hav too much to talk bout coz it's juz a Kuching town jalan-jalan....managed to go to all cat statue....n those so called tourist hot spots.....hahahahaha~~~~we were actually preparing for the next day's trip-Bako national park which iwill share it in the next entry....

nite time was kinda bored coz kuching doesnt hav too much entertainments when the day turns dark....n iwas quite surprised by the price of food over there....it's juz matchable to kl....n guess wat,the general salary there is juz so low(rm 600-rm700) n ireli wonder how can they actually survive vf it!!!!

p/s:kuching=city of cats,bored,old,very "english" town.....

haha~~

Because im too free...and quite excited over my trip to kuching which will fall on tomolo...i re-read all my blog entries on my frendster....it's for the period of jan07-oct07....
the more i read,the more i realised iwas so stupid n stupid...cant think of other words to express my "stupid-ness".....out of all stupid entries,the following 2 are the very much better stuff....n i do miss my basketball life....too bad,similar time wont repeat twice!!!!
Praise God that im no more the old me but im living under His grace n love....;P

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Basketball tournament:(July 07)
having a nice weekend last week….had a nice match in kota tinggi…took part in another new tournament….even though v played segamat where they hav 6 or 7 national players in it….v did play hard even though lose is the onli result that v expected…i played hard…the feeling of losing is not that bad…i enjoyed it….even though v reli were out-paced by them…lolz~~~~having a nice memory….lol!!!!jia you~~~having the 2nd game this Saturday!!!!chance to win mayb slim but i will try my best!!
statistic:
player’s name:koh kai seng
player number: 12
minutes playing: 20+minutes
2pts line:3/4
3pts line:1/3
points scored:9pts
assists:few
steal:0
block:1(i blocked national starting Center!!)
rebounds:few
feeling: smething u cant buy it vf money or any other thing….a life time memories i will say….lol!!

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story of love:(sept 07)
"Life is like a series of pulls back and forth.You want to do something,but you are bound to something else.Something hurts you,yet you know it shouldnt.You take certain thing for granted,even you know you shouldnt take anything for granted."
A tension of opposites is like,a pull on the rubber band.I guess most of us live somewhere in the middle.
And always,love will win it.Love always win in such a match!!
some view and feeling i have after reading a book….nice??

wow~~~

Listening:God of the city!!

Iwas again on9 since evening last nite after an unexpected midvallley trip....by the way,good food,good gathering,n of coz good bowling games......;P

the 2nd part of the day was an even more stunning thing....iwas "you tube-ing" to view sme clips....n this stunned me for a very long time....."How great is our God tour"....trust me...u got to finish the total of 5clips....then u shall c how unique is everyone of us.....iwas like speechless for few hours...."wow~~~~~~"

b4 you reli enjoy the show,ishall give u sme highlights over it.....here it goes:

If you watched Indescribable tour before...this shouldnt b too special for you i bet....

this is the famous "X" Structure at Core of Whirlpool Galaxy.It’s about 23 million light years away from Earth.

ok,inoe im not a biology student....but,ido know what a protein is meant....In the human body, we are all made of Trillions and Trillions of cells that compromise our body and all it's intricate parts. What holds this vast body of ours together?

answer:"Laminin"

Laminin is some kind of protein that acts as the glue that holds all of our trillions of cells together...interesting part is here: Dun u think it's so special that the shape of laminin is juz like the shape of Cross that JC died for u n me??it's not a co-incident or by luck for the shape to b so coz God had actually planned all this....whether you r Christian or not,you are being held,lifted up,bonded by and with God....dun try to deny this fact unless you can prove that your body doesnt contain of this type of protein....

p/s:get used vf blogspot finally......

Remember....

ihad quite an emotional morning....iwas reading news n was watching sme ceremonies thru Internet....it's all bout 911 that happened 7years back....gosh...it marked 7years anniversary since the disaster....my mind still have a very fresh pic over wat had happened(screams,tears,desperate faces)T.T....tears were dropped s iread n saw the pic....2974souls were sacrificed for the purpose of "Jihad"!!!!

idun believe there is any religion(s) in the world actually will require such sacrificing juz to "glorify" the name of God...if God loved/loves you,He will care about u but not ask u to hurt urself....

the world is in chaos as it's written in the Bible....Jesus is returning soon....as for Christians like us,we got to armor ourselves....alwaz ready n eagerly waiting for the return of our Lord.....



In Him,we unite....




p/s:3days to Kuching....10days to new sem!!!!

Help...

Iwas surfing Internet for the whole morning and iwas a bit surprise to read smething....
check this:whyIamnotachristian
im kinda sad to read all the comments on how can others resist the love of God....they juz reject vf some "solid" reasons which i think it's ridiculous.....well,what i can do will b only to pray for these people....s Christians,v muz b able to accept the critics from others(even it may b very extreme n bad!!)....n preserve our standing....

love this today:
"How great You are, O Sovereign LORD! There is no one like You, and there is no God but You, as we have heard with our own ears." <2sa7:22>


p/s:4days away from Kuching trip!!=)

farewell...

had a day that's kinda busy...


went to Balakong for movie~~~~(probably the final movie in the summer??)


out of my expectation,the movie was not bad...








had a nice dinner vf sme frends that are leaving to UK in another 5 days time....


it was cool....
v had so much chit-chatting time and for sure i will miss u guys...

thnx for all the time v spent together!!Tse kai and Karyong....=)



time reli flies....(summer is ending!!!!T.T)
irealised,things in the world do change...
but onli the mighty awesome God...
He remains unchanged....
the love Ireceive day by day....it's the same....=)
as for me,i juz need to seek for His will in all i do.....
the relationship vf with Him is getting deeper n deeper....
iwanna b the salt n the light in the world....=)



p/s:It will never be the same!!

3 in 1

since this is the 1st ever blog entries in the
site...


im going to split it to 3parts,here it
goes.....


it will b a bit long but i will try to shorthen
it!!


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A NEW ME



well,1st of all....


iadmit that i dun speak good english,i dun write
good english....


igrew up in a typical chinese
family....


english is my 2nd language i guess....(my malay
is so poor now!!;P)


so,iwill try my best to improve my eng
level....(lousy reason!!;P)

the reason that i decided to get a blogspot is:

iwas reading Scripture few days back....

ithink it's time for me to draw a clear line vf my past...

smething that i had left it behind n it's time to start smething new n nice...

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HOME SWEET HOME



it has been 2 weeks since i last posted a
blog....


iwent home in fact...."internet-less" for the
passed 2 weeks....>.<


but, i had so much fun n of coz makan nice
food....


taiwan food,nato sushi(my
goodness..i love it so much!!!).....n definitely,my mum's
cooking....


smemore,it's fasting season now for
muslim...


it means i hav even more option to buy sme
kuih-kuih from a ramahdan market where it is juz 2minutes walk from my
hoz!!!!=)


played my 1st ever basketball match in the
summer...not bad~~skill remains but stamina...=(


(supposed to play it last month but it was
cancelled coz smeone forgot to bring her basketball!!XD)


im back into jungle
today.....=)




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DOUBT?


a question is in my mind these
days.....


"is downloading things(songs,images,software) from internet
smething sinful?"


The Bible said "You shall not
steal"......


when i download things from internet even it's
juz the lyrics of sme worshiping songs....


im in dilemma....


isteal ppl's
effort....


at least the copyright,royalty????


iduno....this question is in my head for
sme days....


i reli need to figure out watz the real
truth is!!!!

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

p/s:the site is still under construction!!