update!!

just a quick update that im still alive and breathing as im marching towards the final year of my post graduate!!

life is....

in God's control so icant say much...:)

update soon!!=)

p/s:Completed a journal and ready to submit tomorrow!!=)

the end

it ends today..

this is september...

im glad summer is over,at least it's almost over....
it has been a way too long summer....
but research work consumed too much of my time...
of coz,ultimate,badminton,worship,have been another part of it as well....

icant wait to the upcoming academic year...
coz it will be my final year in semenyih i hope....:P
it will be a lot of fun time coming ican foresee that....:)

until the next update,chao...:)

p/s:18days to new academic year!!:)

update!

i din forget ihave this blog site ha..
it's just that the sudden increase in work,projects consumed too much of my life...
im trying to get a breath to relax...
will update soon!!
=)

365 days...

this is the first 365 days since you have been gone...
ijuz realised you haven't been gone too far...
there are still a lot of things in my life that involved you...

a lot of my living values,a lot of thoughts...
still surround you...
iwish you well in heaven,
there might be a lot more 365 days without you but inoe im going to be re-united with you some day soon in heaven!!=)

live well in heaven,mum...=)

p/s:still miss and love you....

RanDom

this is juz another weekend that im free...
supposedly loaded with some trips but it was cancelled...=)

what happened to me lately???
1)struggling with journal write up..
2)struggling with different lifestyle...
3)trying to work harder for my work...
4)trying to work out more...

what had you completed?
1)watched pretty lot of movies lately..
2)finished 2 books in 3weeks time...
3)managed to rest at 11pm the latest...
4)progressing in research...

what's coming in the near future?
1)Monash HAT league for frisbee..
2)more research work to be done...
3)going home to visit family...
4)ConneXion conference...

endure to what im doing is for my future goodness..
negative thought might have defeated me for a short while..
but,iwont give up even when it's not what i expected...
things might haven't been nice sometimes,
imight have felt discouraged at time...
but,
it's going to worth it...
work hard and never give up,kaiseng!!=)

p/s:reading a new book with title-->"Have a little faith" by mitch albom..=)

ifind struggle

i realised the struggles i have in this summer...
a really different lifestyle is changing in its way....

im trying to work harder,in a faster pace in order to graduate quicker!!
but it's just weird to adapt to this new lifestyle....

p/s:106 days to new semester,can i fast forward this summer break?

crazy life vs crazy love..

having in post year 2 and yet to be in year 3 in post grad life is crazy....
submitted my year 2 report while waiting for feedback...
iwas given a few tasks to complete...
journal journal and journal....

struggling to complete one!!
another one is coming tomorrow....
gosh.....
im crazy.....
managed to finish quite a big part of it last night at home....
going to gun it down soon!!:P
summer has been pretty quiet which is expected....
life has been packed....

missing the fun time with housemates and the conneXion Semenyih group...
work out more but imiss ultimate session with fellow Oopsters....

started a new journey with God with a new book--"Crazy Love"

It's so amazing to have read this book as my spiritual life was again being stirred up....
Thank God for the decision to purchase the book...
im still reading it and if you are interested,please ask me for the book..=)

im currently in a 5minutes break before i resume to my second half of the day with work!!!
crazy!!!!
hahahahaha....

but but but,
crazy life versus crazy love....
crazy love with God is no doubt a winner in this life...=)

till next update, chao...=D

p/s:cant wait for next weekend gateway!!=D

happy birthday?

today is a pretty unique day...
it's my best ever friend's birthday...
a nice hometown friend who has still playing a major role in my life...=D
though we don't meet as often as we used to anymore...
but ialwaz know she is someone ican lean on...=D

it's also another interesting day...
the spiritual birthday of mine....
it has been 9 years that since iwas saved....
no longer a baby christian...
but im still trying to understand more bout Him....

workload is getting crazier as day goes by....
but ihope to work harder than when fall season reaches in about 12 weeks time...=D

p/s:Thank God for this life that You saved...=)

fiNdiNg nEw PaCe iN JuNe

so fast,
im done with the first half of year 2011.
as if January was just passing by yesterday,it's 2nd of june now...
phew....=.="

icant imagine mum had actually left me for almost a year....:(

with the start of summer,
lot of activities and work style changed into a different pace...
struggling to adapt to new pace though....
but im learning to fill it up with different stuffs...

God has been awesome to this life was once worthless...
year 2 is done,year 3 is ahead, future is in nowhere but His hand.
=)

p/s:imiss someone..

SumMeR bReAk....

time flies,another summer is approaching....
ihaven been too active in this site lately...

ihave a lot to say but im stucked with the things now...
in short,it has been an awesome second year in post grad.
ya,ijust submitted my year 2 report...
gosh,cant believe that ican actually make to this stage...=)

on the other hand,
this is also a pretty up and down month as ihad my first mother's day without her!!

however,
God has been granted me so much of unexpected joy and blessings that im still being overwhelmed by it...=D

and,
iknow He surely have another bigger picture for me to paint it....
im learning not to take things for granted but in all ido,itry my best to give thanks to Him....=)

another summer kicks start....
122 days to new semester....
tough summer but iwill finish it strong!!=D

till the next update..chaos~~=D

p/s:look forward to the summer...=D

a Day To ReMeMbEr..

today is a day to remember...
coz i finished my second year report draft and ijuz wait for feedback from my supervisor...
and work on my poster...=D

it has been a really tough weeks and yeah!!=D
im done and wait for my hard-earned break!!!=D

p/s:Another summer is coming....=)

April???

Icant believe it's almost end of the 1/3 of 2011!!!
where has my time gone?
life has been indeed crazy in this nottingham post grad pursue...
well,at least God keeps me alive...
weekly basis fellowship and Friday night event did remind me that im His precious son and not a robot....

few things i did this month,
year 2 report which is still on going at the moment....3 more chapters to go but I think it should be good....
consider i have 9 months to rush instead of a year due!!!=.="

took part in a poster presentation on Wednesday and igot number 6th out of 27 posters that took part in that competition...=)
here we go with my poster:



currently compiling another poster that is to be posted up in University on the 18th May....if i make it to top 5 out of 20,imight stand a chance to go the UK campus though!!!=)
still too far to talk bout the trip...
of coz,prayers are much needed...=)

and another summer is coming....
it simply means,mum left me for almost a year soon....
still miss her a lot though i know she is doing well with the Lord in heaven...
and icant wait to go home to visit my nephew,my niece,my sisters,and my dad...
it has been quite a while....
1month plus din get to see them?=(

p/s:I know im made preciously in Your eye when You decided to send Your son to the world to die for my sin.

sOlDiEr fOr Christ?

this is a very special month...
not mentioning life has been up and down...
being in a tough enough and also crazy enough life in PhD pursuing process,

im still witnessing God's grace and His wonderful plan in me,also in the community that im living in.
Research work begins to get even crazier as imarch on towards the end of year 2!!
(i cant believe that too!!!!:P)

and we juz had quite an amazing Easter show on campus,pretty good feedback by quite some friends of mine...
(glory to Him alone!!=D)
also, a charity fund raiser work between conneXion house and UNMC CF is going to end later...
God's mercy is pouring in such an awesome way that we exceed the target that we set im sure...

and as i was talking to a China girl who is here for mobility exchange program,we spoke in such a detail context regarding to Christ...
imagine iwasnt prepared at all when italked to her,but...
His Words and teaching just flow out non-stop from me for almost an hour.
Iwasnt awared until the moment iwent to sleep...

irealised that she was the first lady that i shared for more than 50minutes (FACE TO FACE)...
well,iadmit lot of times im more to a digital talking guy than face to face talk guy...:P

my point is not about how awesome my sharing was,it's bout how can God use such a very normal person like me to share His truth to a non-believer....
she was so open to the Gospel...
(she wanted to continue at the clock shows almost 11pm!!)

and im again being so thankful to my Living God...
this is surely going to be a very special Easter too....
=)

until the next update,bye....

p/s:Lord,I am amazed by You....

E.A.S.T.E.R??

just some thoughts that came across my mind as i was thinking about the meaning of Easter....
at this point of my life, i still cant believe what and how Jesus obeyed the fulfillment that was pre-Prophesied....
i wonder what was in His mind knowing that He would be betrayed by His very own disciple...
to suffer and die on the cross....
what a great faith model He had set for followers like us to learn....
and i was thinking on how can i make this EAster even more special?
some random vocab words linking came across me and this is how i define Easter:

Eternally
A
Savior
Tried
Explaining about
Ransom

i know idon't have good english vocab...:P
but this is the best stuff i can come out with...=)

till the next update...
bye...

p/s:He is the reason i live on this place...=D

hola...

obviously, i didn't update my blog post that often anymore...
this is not because i don't have things/update for it...
but it's just that life is just packed with too many activities and too busy to update...
i know this reason is pretty lousy but here i am with a short update then...

i am currently in a year 1 chemical engineering assessment week and i am updating this while waiting for students to ask me questions...

ihad some crazy weeks for the past months.....
but i did and do enjoy all the things that my God gave me....=)
a lot of tough times with faith related moments happened....
that in fact made me to be more determined to be an obedient guy..=)

another summer is approaching....
another year is coming to half time...
till next update...
chao...=)


p/s:journal writting is no fun!!!=(

here comes the first quarter of 2011!!

time flies....
by a blink of eyes,
it's the first quarter of the year 2011!!!
there are a lot of things on going both work and off work....
a lot of plannings,hang out sessions...

a lot of new and exciting things were experienced....=D

and icant wait...
and i love how my Lord is challenging even in the time of peace....
this really excites me on how He actually knows what is best for me when i thought i know what's best for myself!!!!
ijuz cant help but falling in love deeper with Him as day goes by.....
ireally cant wait for what is ahead of me....
=))))

and verse of the day to medidate:

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving. "Colossians 3:23-24"

p/s:ihave a new nephew called---Shay!!=D

Retreat...

it was fun for the retreat....=)
ithink God is really so awesome and im so excited to the coming change of the conneXion house....=D

as im writing this....
ithink im trying to learn to be more patient to find God's will in me...
How He just let me to learn a lesson on how i shall trust Him more even in my financial planning and all part of my life....

And,
when obedience is the crucial key in finding His will in my life....

p/s: hola,March 2011!!=)

:)

An awesome day to remember.....:)))
Oh,Chinese new year is over ha!!

Joy and happiness are filled in this life....
I'm thankful to Him....:)

p/s:hello,Cameron....:)

very often..

very often,
we tend to be givers of life a lot more than receiver of life....
and so often,
we know that we have limit in giving but yet we will give it all....
just so common human nature ha!!
and things dun seem to be what we thought it is actually,
devil will kick in to drive you nuts.....

but im glad,
ihave a God who is so awesome and He is such a God that is alive....
just when ihad some love-giving-drought moment lately,
He showed me His unfailing love again with this verse:

Above all,love each other deeply,because love covers over a multitude of sins.
"1 Peter 4:8"

also from the daily devotion,

Build your life on the solid foundation—Jesus Christ.
"Matthew 7:24-27"

I love the people that live in my community simply because God is love....
and ineed to learn to love them deeply,coz it will cover the imperfection of each of us....

im still not perfect,not even near to this word....
but im learning,to surrender more to Him as day goes by....
it's tough,it's not easy....
it involves a lot of obedience and trust....

but iwant to keep on pursuing God in all aspect of my life....
and this song's lyrics juz came across my mind that is so meaningful ha....

"And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,
In the light of His glory and grace."
(Quoted from "turn your eyes upon Jesus")

p/s:hello,spring semester...=)

sometimes..

sometimes you just wonder,
if things are happening like what is in your mind...
or it's not?

my heart is still feeling upside down on and off....
like in a way how life is going....
dislike how it's going sometimes though....
but iknow something as i read more of God's Words...

But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in Him.
"Jeremiah 17:7"

still want to trust God whole heartedly!!

p/s:Happy Chinese new year...=)

I have come to know this...

Matthew 5:38-48
We’re like toast slathered with jelly that has fallen upside down on the kitchen floor. Left to ourselves, we can make a pretty big mess of things. Then Jesus comes along, like a divine spatula, scrapes us off the floor of our sinful ways, and turns us right side up. And as we follow His right-side-up ways, we discover that turning the other cheek keeps us from getting caught in a brawl, that it is more blessed to give than to receive, and that dying to self is life at its best.

Taken from
-----> Our daily bread

thank You,Father for being such a compassionate God,such a loving God that never let me go....
indeed You know what I need....
indeed You are the God that is same from yesterday,today and forever.....

sign out with a heart that love You more....=)

p/s:love the rainy,chilling weather back home here...=)

才发现...

今晚白等了3,4小时......

iam second...

the second time that i wake up early in the morning....
iactually really love the quietness of the morning....

but,idun think iwill miss it much in the summer though....
Iactually can feel the loneliness in the summer but not now!!=)

woke up at 430am today....=)

值得,一切将会是值得的.....

going back mersing next week!!!=)

p/s:Hello,chinese new year!!=)

才发现..

不喜欢这挣扎的困境....
有网中鱼的感觉.....

iduno...

I think lately ihave been dwelling a lot with Scriptures,passages....
there is a passage that really struck me...

as i woke up this morning....
it appeared like a photocopy-kind of work....
like it juz appeared in front of me....
so iread it.......

and here you go with the portion of the Scripture:
it's taken from 2 Corinthians 4:

Present Weakness and Resurrection Life

Therefore, since through God’s mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to everyone’s conscience in the sight of God. And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel that displays the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. For what we preach is not ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus’ sake. For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of God’s glory displayed in the face of Christ.

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

It is written: “I believed; therefore I have spoken.” Since we have that same spirit of faith, we also believe and therefore speak, because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you to himself. All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.
"2 Corinthians 4:1-18"

this is so awesome,knowing that our current troubles are nothing compared to the eternal glory that we will receive as the day that the Most High One returns....

I simply live for You alone!!=)

song of the week ahead:

-->You gave Your life away

p/s:Hello,Chinese new year 2011!!=)

crazy

im crazy today....
or ishall say falling sick makes me go crazy....
ifelt sleepy last nite at 10pm but icouldnt really sleep well....

iwoke up almost every hour and iwonder why....

and so,
i woke up at 3am in the morning to work!!!

ican foresee this to come pretty often in near future!!

p/s:waking up in the morning is feeling not too bad actually...=)

Song of the day...

a morning devotion time proves that God is such a dynamic God and a God of in control of all things....

im just speechless,knowing that He is alive.....
wow!!!!

and as i read through the passage,this song came across my mind....
and wat more interesting is the comment i found from the youtube link that really amaze me...

check this out....

You know what makes God so amazing, is when we fall on our faces, when we push Him away, when we turn our backs on Him, when we deny Him, He still loves us unfailingly, that is amazing. I love You my Lord and Savior.@Random comment

and song of the day:

-->Unfailing love

p/s:live life love....=)

Give me clean hand...

God,
give me clean hand,
give me pure heart....
Let us not lift our souls to another
Oh God let this be..
a generation that seeks...
Who seeks Your face, Oh God of Jacob...
"Give us clean hand by Chris Tomlin"

a lot of times,we plan and without seeking God's will....
this is destined to fail....

im still trying to understand His purpose in my life....
if i should have the life i thought i will have,
im not sure...
but iwant to be a brother/friend that is accountable....
if God sees me in this way,and this is what He gives me...
im cool to accept it...

something i read from tweeter has really amazed me:

Friendship is unnecessary, it has no survival value; but it's one of those things that gives value to survival. @CSLewis

my sickness seems to fluctuate....
but at least sorethroat is cutting down ha!!=)

p/s:journal writing is proven not to be too tough though!!:P

Struggle..

kaiseng is struggling to find a new pace of life....
imagine i "slept" at near 1am yet i "woke up" at 622am....

finding a rhythm in life is proven to be tough....
my heart is weary,my soul is hungry....
my brain is falling apart mentally,my body is falling sick physically....

im trying.....
to improve the whole life cycle.....
need to let my live life in a better way ha!!

a lot of prayers needed...
if you are reading this,please pray for me...=)

p/s:hi,flu...hi,sorethroat...hi,running nose!!!=(

it shall call

The end of a dream and to get ready for a new life....

a NeW dAwN...

iwas struggling with emotional control last night....
but no matter if you believe or not,
ijust had a close encounter with God...

He is once again,
stretching out His mighty arm to show His care for me....
im thankful for the almigthy God that ihave.....=)

there are so many questions in life that we don't need to know the answers,just know that He loves us..@Quote from CAsting crown's song...=)

Song of the day:

Love them like Jesus


Verse of the day to medidate:

He(Jesus) replied, “Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and obey it.”
'Luke 11:28'

love this line that iread it from Daily Bread today:

A life of obedience may not be easy, but it will be blessed.


another new week that ineed to strive hard to bring Him more glory....
and iwill keep praying for the students in Nottingham who will be facing exams from this week onwards...=)

p/s:a new dawn has come....=)

Mercy..

Ithink im calmer than wat ithink im....

if tis is the God who knows me from the start of life plans for me...
im more than happy to face it ha!!=)

a same kaiseng who is so pasionate to gospel is here...=)

p/s:a new week...bring it on!!=)

tonight...

it's one of the worst nights in my life today....

sometimes iwonder...

sometimes,ijust wonder...
if im a good leader...
ihaven felt too discouraged for quite a while...
but today,ithink ilet my emotion to drive me for a bit...
iknow ishouldnt find any comfort from human standard....
it's the God that iwill need to get His favor...

but,tonight....
deep in my heart....
ido feel very tired from the things im working hard on....
iwonder if ppl take that for granted....
did someone mayb think,ineed ppl to nourish as well?

sign out with swinging mood...

p/s:ireally wonder....=.="

helLo 2011...

currently in Singapore for a research conference...

-->AMN&APLOC2011

it's a new year....=)
nothing much to express lately coz life has been wonderful with God's presence....
the more i dwell in Him,the more iknow the God that ihave with me is alive...=)

ijuz finished some online conference called Passion2011!!=)
this heart is being stirred up once again....

I wept as i watched those sessions...
recalling how my life changed since the nite at Passion KL 08'
im forever thankful for this life that He saves...=)

song of the day....

Glory in the highest

p/s:a new month that iwant to strike well to bring Him honor...=)