difFeRenT?

for some reasons,this is a month that ihave a lot of weird thinking that came across my mind....
sorry to bother you to read this really boring and meaningless post?

irealised,there is a difference between words "need","want","hope" and maybe "yearn"!!!

the word "yearn" is closer to "need" but somehow it gives a stronger feeling of wanting.....
"need" is smething we r ought to do so in order to get the next objective.....

"want" is something reli....thru our own desire?
something that may not be "needed" yet we want it due to our own desire??

"hope" is something good and bad?
im talking about the "realistic" hope but not the day-dreaming hope!!!
from good side point of view,it gives u some goals to work on it!!!it gives u motivations.....
from bad side point of view,it may divert your focus from some main objectives that you are supposed to do!!!
a lot of time,we tend to lost track from whatz the proper things that we need to do and we are always "blinded" by the fake hope!!!

so,for examples,
i "YEARN" for Jesus...
i "NEED" the words of Christ to quench my spiritual thirst..
i "WANT" to know the truth of some questions of my heart!!
i "HOPE" for someone who really cherish me?

ihave no idea why iwill come out with the above definitions and im sure that some of the words are not correct according to some dictionary definitions.....=)

im not superior....
im nvr good enough....

that's the reason that,
ialwaz yearn for the truth of Living Christ....
iknow i need Him....
iknow what i want will b given by Him according to His plan....
and surely iknow He will fulfill my hope!!!
=)

If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.'Matthew 6:30-32'

p/s:ijust realised that im very selfish!!@_@

tRuSt?

ilove the feeling of being trusted!!!!
ilove the feeling that when others tell u the stories of their life without trying to hide the weaker side of them,the part that where everyone tries so hard just to cover it from letting ppl to know that!!

ilove the part of knowing(means being trusted) and itry to keep it(the stories) as much as i can....

itry to imagine the scenarios and alwaz try to analyze what can be done in the situation if the similar situations happen to me someday....
itry to be faithful to friend,try to be a 24-hours listener....
and irealise,
so the emotion control is really important in achieving to this mode.....
igot to b patient,to not to put in personal views towards an issue....
a lot of diff factors are needed....
im learning it still....
imay still make a lot of hidden mistakes that iwill suffer till the end....
im still trying to surrender as much i can.....

In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.'James 2:17'

p/s:itry very hard to keep a promise,and im willingly to take any consequences of that!!=)

FrIdAy...

a day that ialways look forward to....

im actually much busier for my weekends than for my weekdays!!!

for some reasons that i understand it well...=)

im glad that im going to have another small break session which is next week b4 im really ready for the new semester where i need to assist in some teaching sessions...

icant still imagine that kaiseng needs to supervise lab session??

icant still imagine that kaiseng needs to mark coursework?

icant still imagine that kaiseng needs to invigilate exam?

but im surely that,

ican alwaz do awesome things for Christ is with me....=)

Try to copy answer?=)

p/s:never say never to something that you are not sure!!=)

wHaT woulD U dO?

what would you do when you are quite tired from your work?
some say,iwill go for movies..(there is no cinema in semenyih la!!@_@)
some say,iwill go to yam cha(tiade kereta la!!bahaya naik motor malam-malam ini!!>.<)
some say,iwill on9!!!(pretty decent but kinda tired too!!)
some say,iwill rest earlier!!(come on,it's only 10+pm?)

so,idid something reli crazy tonite!!!

I SPENT ALMOST 4HOURS JUST TO READ A FRIEND'S BLOG!!:)

p/s:im crazy tonite!!:D

for...

for some reasons,ifeel like writing smething here....
for some reasons,ifeel like running away from kl again!!!
for some reasons,idoubt over some of my decisions made....
for some reasons,ithink im not deserved the love yet God still loves me the most...
for some reasons,ithink im still kinda selfish sometimes!!!
for some reasons,im aware towards something around me....
for some reasons,ithink my weird hobby of observing others can b good n bad at time....
for some reasons,ithink im nvr good enough to take care of myself.....
for some reasons,iwas told that im nncc.....
(someone told me!!@_@ &:P)
*nncc=naggy!!!

for some reasons,im waiting for ppl to leave for dinner.....
for some reasons,ijuz need some new elements to spice up my life?
for some reasons,im writing smething that nvr make sense in this place....

p/s:new week;new hope....new chance;new attempt....

pSaLm 26:8

after all....
so much of tough work....
so much time of cleaning....
so much time spent on it....
(thnx Sarah and Adam for the main cleaning part,and oso Adam that helped me in so many other sections!!!!)

ladies and gentlemen,
let me proudly announce that...
(drumming now~~~~~)

"conneXion Semenyih is DONE and READY TO OPERATE!!!!!"


icant help to share my joy everywhere....
it's so so nice to see how it's done....
piece by piece.....
section by section.....
to see how it will b used s a lighthouse of Christ in this area....
my heart juz feel so awesome now.....=)

of coz....
greater things have yet to come....
and greater things are still to be done....

ishall look forward to it!!!!!=)
all the glory is for Him....=)

I love the house where You live, O LORD, the place where Your glory dwells. 'Psalm 26:8'

p/s:I see a generation rising up to take their place!!=)

wEaRy....

things are spinning out of control recently!!!!
itried to stay cool,stay happy....

try to focus on whatz more important....
try to motivate other ppl.....
smehow,
for sme reasons,
the more itry to do so....
the more upset iseem to get now.....
there is a lot of emptiness in the heart....

a lot of time...
ifeel like im suffocating and iseem juz cant breathe!!!!
im weary.....
im tired....

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." 'Matthew 11:28-30'

things would have gone worst had not ifound HOPE in Christ....

p/s:istill wan to put my faith in Jesus!!=)

yEs?

there is a small part of my life that is needed to be taken into consideration.....
is it true that there is alwaz a peaking up session in every friendship??
and tends to fall back to some situation so called--"Steady state"???
juz a sine wave,u go up in the begining,and u fall back to a certain level after sme time???

im worrying this happen to sme part of the friendship part.....
im alwaz the same....
(to b there to anyone that needs my presence and to listen and etc etc)
for inoe everyone is such precious that ineed to treasure....
mayb......
mayb,im not trying hard enough!!!

if there is a choice,ihope all of my frendship curves will b exponential curve!!(which means nvr ending and nvr fall back!!)

p/s:thanks for the recharging session,conneXion conference!!=)

TenSion?

for sme reason,irealise that there is a change between the relationship in sme part of my life....
for sme reason,there is a barrier built....
for sme reason,we dun share anymore...
for sme reason,the trust was gone....
for sme reason,ifind difficulty to express my true feeling....
for sme reason,ithink ineed to try to find a solution....
for sme reason,ithink this is smething iwanna pay attention to.....

ican understand how much exhaustion can break down one's physical and mental limits....
=)

p/s:to all friends,im still alwaz here to ready to share vf u if u r ready to share the same with me!!=)

PoSt PaSsiOn 08...

today is a remarkable day....
365 days ago....
exactly this time now....
936pm.....

Iwas saved yet again!!
the story of ashley still in my mind....
=)
thanks you, Passion KL.....

Yes,LORD, walking in the way of Your laws, we wait for You; Your name and renown are the desire of our hearts...

p/s:i still want to be the fruitcake of Jesus...=)

a dAy to ReMeMbEr...

it's a day to remember....
1st basketball game with some US mission team guys.....
1st time got stucked in massive,paralyzed traffic....>.<
(thnx to the anti-ISA demo....)

but what hurts more is,
when u r not getting trust from others.....
(all ican say will b,everyone will fail&disappoint you)

the rebellious heart is getting stronger....
but itry to surrender....

for idun need be rate by human but by Him....

p/s:a week to remember as i got my 1st pay cheque!!