HaVe you?

Have you felt that when God seemed to b reli reli far from you???
Have you tried that u juz felt so lonely in front of a big bunch of ppl?
Have you thought that wat u do in ur daily life is actually totally worthless???
Have you thought of how life will b like had you chosen the other way to live it???

Dont try that....
it's reli horrible!!!

and this fantastic verse juz so wonderful:

Even though I walk through to the valley of shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff,
they comfort me. 'Psalm23:4'

p/s:a new level of trust and faith towards You...=)

wEiRd...

im losing my way of laughter....>.<

the more itry to b better....
the more im losing myself.....

itry to b the same s old days but it juz din happen anymore....
is this part of the growing up process??

p/s:imiss the msn days!!

spEecHlEsS...

there are millions and millions of words that iwish to share here...
for some reasons,ijuz cant voice it out.....
being a Christian can b tough in a lot of time.....
try to put in faith to things that u nvr see can b hard and u can b jeered too!!!
there r thousands and thousands of examples that i witnessed...
the difference of non-believers and believers.....

im speechless tonite.....
but,iwan to keep my faith onto Him....
istill wan to trust Him.....

im smehow feeling very confused tonite!!!!!
but inoe,
Jesus is the light before my feet.....

sO...

juz a very short update....
ihad my graduation ceremony on Saturday...
kinda decent....
kinda memorable....
kinda cool....
kinda nice.....

n recently,ilearn to see things from different prospects....
itry to see things from different angles...
n irealise,sme of my words and actions can bring both good and bad to others...

a good lesson learnt!!!
will update more when ihave time.....

p/s:so fast,it's almost end of July d!!

RePoRt CaRd...

This is not the normal report card as you expect but this is actually a summary of my faith walk since last summer!!
It juz pop out from my mind when iwas in the bus back home from kl!!!
And I guess this will b relatively longer post!!bear with me plz!!=)

Personal:

Having God in my daily life hasn’t been easy….
Since the summer 08, post Passion mood did supply endless energy for sme time.
Somehow, trying to serve God in many different ways were nvr easy.
So much of temptations, so much of struggling time, so much of expectations given by myself n sme other external factors have given me a lot more difficult to try to serve Him….
Idin dare to say idid a good job in making Christ known but smehow, im glad though….
Sme outings that we managed to have, and the retreat camp we had….
The fun time we had in Bible study group….=)

S for personal walk, ihad become more discipline to read the Scripture daily, to hav the quiet time….
To manage to understand the deeper meaning of what the Scriptures are meant!!
Hmm…
So for this up coming year, I had been praying a lot for my own walk with Him.

Being the only follower of Christ in family is tough.
Plz pray for me, everyone….
iguess iwill b registering to get myself baptized in coming Xmas.=)

Family:

As I said, family has been my important support to myself….in my studies, in this earthly life….
nothing much to update but the 2 new members that 1 came in march 9th n one is coming in bout 1.5months time!!!
Ithnx God for the new coming babies….

moiiesha is juz so so cute and everyday is juz an amazing new day to know how she progresses her life so well….=)
N ya,mum was diagnosed as cancer patient mayb 2months back….

she is still doing her chemotherapy and plz,plz….plz keep praying for her….
N my other family members too….plz keep them in ur prayer that they may accept Christ as their personal saviour!=)

Friendship cycle:

Ihad managed to meet with so many different friends in my life….

some are good, some come and go….
Idun conclude myself to be a good friend to most of them…..
But ihope what they can see me, it’s not KaiSeng but they can see Christ’s image thru me….
Iwan….n iwan to b ready….juz to be the light and the salt of this world!!!!
And recently,I myself witness so much change in relationship among friends….
There was this lady who asked me in MSN one evening:


her: “do you(me) think are we possible?”
(without even a second of thinking)
Me: “No!!”

Iduno why iwould say so though….
Is it because invr think of this question?? or because sme past disasters still haunting me? So this question kept flipping thru my mind for the next few days…
Icant deny I do…yes,ido enjoy the friendship we manage to build up so far….i do appreciate the every moment of sharing, the kacau time we have….=P
Hmm….
So I guess, a “NO” is the answer for the moment but no one knows the future iguess!!
Ido know my Jesus knows whatz best for me….=)

Career:

Ijuz entered my post grad studies for the week number 2nd.
Things went bad since last week when the research work(lab work) was running badly? And ya, the more iwas involving in my work, the more amazed iwas by how my Jesus is….
Ok, if any of you duno what my research is about….
Im working with some microchannel research….to make it simple…ineed to work with some glass-noodle-size tubes…..
Seeing how things were perfectly made by Him, as compared to me, who try so hard yet isolve nothing in the work….
He is so BIG and im so small!!!!

Conclusion:

Hmm…..giving full attention to the new student house will be the main focus…..and the rest, I leave to God….plz pray for me, for the up coming year…..I will keep growing in Christ spiritually…..


p/s:don’t pray for easy life, pray to be a stronger person…

And He never fails...

as a response to juz last night,
iwas disappointed by a lot of things....
the details are no more important....
bcoz,smething juz filled in the hole....
ithnk God for His never ending love.....
i thnk Him for having such an awesome relationship with me.....
=)
Jesus,You are the sweetest name of all!!



words of love-->Psalm136

Give thanks for His unconditional love in so many occasions.....

p/s:im surely surely a blessed guy!!!!

update...

it has been while since a real update in this place....

im in my day number 9th of my work....

faced a big problem with the research work....

trying to fix the problem and what i can do about my work is to read more and more journals!!!>.<

in the other hand, church life has been awesome....

so much of fun time,so much of sharing,so much of sports fellowships and etc etc....

=)

im going home soon as ineed to send mum to 2nd batch of chemotherapy in coming friday!!

plz continue to pray for her!!

i appreciate it a lot...=)

and ya,eldest sis and bro-in-law will be coming back from State finally...

after 1.5years!!!!

to attend to my graduation ceremony....

im so excited bout that...

both the return of them and my own graduation.....

till then....Ciao....

will come back with more update bout my graduation!!!

still,all the credits to my Father in Heaven....

understand the real meaning of tower of Babel....when you are weary,look back to your springs of life!!=)

p/s:student house is 60% ready!!=)

RaNdOm...

for some reason,ifeel like to write smething today....
ya,PhD seems not to b so easy ya???

problems just like wave motion....
nvr stop hitting to me....
so much of weird,unique problems,so many things that are not made clearly,so blur towards so many things.....

but inoe,there is one great God that is alwaz there for me.....=)

Jesus is GOOD!!!!=)

song of the day--->O,for a thousand tongues to sing

there is one great love--Jesus

p/s:ilove my church life...=)

pOsItiOn...

ihave some new titles:

PhD student
Research Assistant (so called RA)
Team leader(for my project)
Post grad student
Permanant Head Damage student
Lepak kaki
(somemore??)

call me as you like from the list above....
(or any other name(s) u prefer to use...=D)

ifelt iwas so small when i did sme lab chip yesterday....
seeing of the small chip that me n my colleague made it....
it smehow juz made me think of how Christ has created me in His own image.....
it's juz so amazing....

p/s:Jesus loves I;I love Jesus!!